In the Spring of 1993, I had a Kingdom Instructional Moment with my Grandma Bostick; however, in that season of my life I was spiritually unaware of the Truth that was being deposited into my spirit. At the time I was dating Al, who is now my husband, and he had done something that caused me great internal turmoil. On the real, I was quite upset! As usual I called my Aunt Ollie, my deceased mother’s younger sister, to discuss the matter with her and get her advice. Since my Grandma Bostick lived with my aunt at the time, she picked up the phone and proceeded to deposit a seed of Truth…
“Jupee, (her nickname for me), you don’t call to talk to me; you call to talk to Ollie and that’s ok. Because The Lord reveals; The Lord reveals. And if you knew who you were, you wouldn’t let these boys do this to you. Now, here’s Ollie.”
My Grandma Bostick didn’t even give me an opportunity to verbally respond. She simply deposited what God had revealed to her and handed the phone to my Aunt Ollie. Remember I said in that season of my life, I was spiritually unaware of the Truth that was being deposited. The Truth I was ignorant (unknowledgeable) of was the purpose for my living. Therefore without the enlightenment of Truth and the illumination of purpose, I was a dead man walking!
When Purpose is NOT defined, abuse is inevitable.
Dr. Myles Munroe
Unfortunately, for many years I did not give that seed of Truth much thought. It got buried under the lies of the enemy which included the stresses of life, the worldly pleasures of my own desires, and the opinions and expectations of others. My life was in an abusive state because I existed in the prison of personal ignorance and darkness which was causing me to journey on a road of death (void of life).
However in the Fall of 2008, God aggressively spoke Truth again into my spirit. I say aggressively because it had been 15 years since my Grandma Bostick deposited that seed of Truth. Although others had watered that seed, 2008 was the God-appointed time for a harvest to come forth. In other words, God had made an investment (purpose) in me, and now He desired to see a return (profit) on that investment.
Therefore, one day during my study time The Holy Spirit said,
“Compromise is no longer acceptable. No longer can you deny yourself! It’s time to walk in spiritual integrity!”
After a time of meditation and personal reflection, I began to realize that a great deal of my frustration in life and with life was because I was merely existing – living a lie, if you will. I was not walking in spiritual integrity. I was not being true to myself. In essence, spiritual integrity is spiritual harmony where there is no deviation or differentiation between “who I were,” what I say, and what I do. However, because I was living contrary to who God created me to be, I was living a life of personal compromise. Unfortunately, this life of compromise was causing internal conflict which consequently produced external hell – conflict in my fellowship with others (the quality of my relationships). Now as I reflect for inner peace, I believe God drew the line of demarcation; it was the God-appointed time for me to finally live.
Purpose is Your W.O.R.K., and Your W.O.R.K is Your Worship!
It is important for all of us to remember that each and every one that is earthed into time was and is born for a purpose. This divine assignment has our names written on it. No one else can fulfill the purpose (divine assignment) we were earthed to accomplish. In our place of purpose we re-discover our w.o.r.k. (wonderful opportunity to represent the King). Subsequently our w.o.r.k. is our worship – the return or profit God desires to experience (John 4:23, 24). Therefore when we choose to live a life of personal compromise and merely exist, we are robbing God of a worship experience. We are depriving God of an opportunity to enjoy the manifestation of the Truth of who we were in His Mind before we were earthed into time. In essence, we are defrauding and cheating Him! Oh…what a powerful, revolutionary thought to ponder.
On that Fall 2008 day, the choice to live was up to me. God had made me an offer. However, I ultimately had to willingly accept the opportunity to live. I could have continued to exist in the misery of what I had always known, for I had become conditioned to the pain. I had learned how to manage the misery. However, truly the misery I was experiencing finally outweighed any fear that was hindering me from moving forward into the freedom of tomorrow’s possibilities.
Therefore, if you have been living a life of personal compromise and experiencing internal conflict, know that the external hell you are encountering is heaven exposing lessons you need to learn. Stop selling yourself short by remaining content in the complacency of compromise. You don’t want to end up right where you’ve always been. Take a leap of faith in pursuit of purpose. God deserves a return or profit on His investment. He deserves the Truth of You. And so do YOU!
© 2011 Julianne Pearson
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