In one particular season of my life,
the suffocating grips of guilt and condemnation had their hold on my soul
(mind, emotions, and will) like a vicious python. Choices I had made in light of what I thought would be the best route to take
had led me to and eventually through some destructive situations and painful
afflictions.[1]
One
day, during a time of reflection God spoke Words that brought illumination to
the very dark places where I was most disappointed in myself. This was one of the revelations that began
to change the very fabric of my personal belief systems.[2]
Juli, I have underwritten your process;
You’re worth the risk!
In the end, I will profit more out of your life
than your process has cost Me.
than your process has cost Me.
I
repeated those Words of Life over and over again. God had strategically used an analogy related
to my previous work experience that penetrated the darkness of despondency with
His Divine Light.[3] Let me explain.
Several
years ago, I joined my husband in business and began working in the health care
industry as an independent contractor for a supplemental health insurance
company. As an independent contractor,
my responsibility was to present and enroll applicants in health plans that the
insurance company provided. Once I submitted
the application for review, it went through an underwriting process. It was
during this process that the underwriters of the insurance company determined
whether or not the applicant was too high of a risk to insure. This means that the company would review the
applicant’s health history to see if there were any indications that the
insurance company would pay more money in claims than they would receive in
premiums from the applicant. Therefore,
one’s past health experiences were a major determining factor in whether a
company desired to take the risk. If the
stakes were too high and the company perceived that the applicant would cost
them more than they would profit, the application would be denied. However, on the flip side of the coin, if the
insurance company determined there was a greater possibility that they would profit
from the applicant as a policyholder than they would have to pay the
policyholder in claims, the application was processed and put in effect.
You see, for too long I had given the
heaviness of guilt, condemnation, and fear’s paralyzing power access to my soul
which temporarily prevented me from maximizing my full potential and hindered
the fulfillment of the Purpose for which I was earthed into time. From that moment of illumination on, I
decided (mental assent) and chose (faith in action) to begin living a life of
freedom from the fear and lie of making an unwise choice that God is not
capable of redeeming. The Truth is God
is a Redeemer![4] And He is fully capable of making all things
well, if we give Him permission to do so.
So
today, if – like me – the life suffocating grips of guilt and condemnation have
had their python hold on your soul, I release these Words of Life that are full
of Encouragement and Hope to you…
God has underwritten your process;
Because you are worth the risk!
Jul-ism
[1] Proverbs
14:12
[2] Romans
12:2
[3] Psalm
119:130
[4] Isaiah
48:17
© 2011 Julianne Pearson
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